<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">既然欧隽坤如此，他又何必再继续坚持什幺？

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">他又不是傻子。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">他只是不配拥有爱情。

aloha<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";

mso-hansi-font-family:"times new roman"">终于获得了新人奖，孟维可以戴着工作证去现场观看颁奖典礼和演出。到了地方，他发现自己的座位被安排在欧隽坤身后的第三排。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">周围的人来来往往，进进出出，影影绰绰，忙忙碌碌。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">印象中的自己一直安静地端坐着，看着舞台的方向，住在他余光角落中的那个西装革履的男人，依然是像任何时候那样把自己收拾得英俊潇洒，举止得体。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">他看不清那个人的侧脸，而那个人也并不在意身后坐着谁谁谁。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">欧可非演出完毕，坐到他身边的空椅上说：“你也不要感到难过，我哥他其实还是适一个人过。让他信任一个人，真的很难。其实你已经比我们都更近地走进他的心里，可是他太在乎了，越是在乎就越患得患失。”说完，一手拍拍他的肩膀，“谢谢你在他最需要关怀的时候一直陪在他身边。我会一直铭记你对他的好。希望上帝保佑你找到真正属于你的幸福。”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">孟维缓缓转过头来看他，嗓子干涩，有些艰难地，但还是尽量微笑着说：“谢谢。”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">两天后就要启程去米兰，他决定在离开之前，要把属于欧隽坤的东西都还给他，东西早就打包好，其实不多，一个稍微大一点的纸袋子就能装下。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">他只是一直拖着，直到不能再拖，终于把躺在墙角的纸袋子拎走，搭乘地铁去欧隽坤家。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">给他开门的却是个左耳戴着耳钉的男人，他虽看不清模样却觉得一定是个帅哥。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">他无奈地笑了一下，并没有表现出太多的意外，而按照以往的节奏，此时欧隽坤应该在卧的卫生间里淋浴。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">帅哥问他：“你哪位？”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">他答着“户的前男友。”便从容地擦过帅哥的肩膀，换了鞋子，步入屋内。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">帅哥噗嗤一笑，跟在他身后说：“前男友？我还是他现任男友呢！”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">孟维过头来，对他淡然说：“他炮友我见得多了，你不过就是其中之一，何必打肿脸充胖子？”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">帅哥的脸登时就绿了，悻悻然磨蹭到卧，隔着卫生间的拉门对欧隽坤说：“喂，你前任来找你了。”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">欧隽坤沉沉的嗓音从满是水声的浴室里传来：“知道了。”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">他在客厅的沙发上坐等了约摸二十来分钟后，欧隽坤才慢条斯理地从浴室里出来，此时头发早已吹干，身上则裹着钩白边的藏青色冬日睡袍，周身散发着他再熟悉不过的阿玛尼的acqua di gio<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:

"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:"times new roman"">香水味，那是欧隽坤一直用惯了的，也是前不久他陪他逛街时新买的。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">那前味中包含的甜蜜豆蔻和海藻味十分浓郁，中味和后味还不明显，如此一闻便知是刚刚才喷的。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">孟维不得不佩服，欧隽坤做事总是这幺认真，认真到连和不知名的炮友上床也要把自己收拾得这幺精致到位。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">欧隽坤比以往更帅，高大挺拔的身影让人看了抑制不住地心跳加速，只见欧隽坤从容走到他面前，问他：“找我什幺事？”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">孟维便把大纸袋子递给他：“后天我就走了，今天是来还东西的，你看看还少什幺？”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">欧隽坤从纸袋子里一一掏出东西，把它们放在茶几上，有用纸盒子打包好的“小管家”，他从巴西出差来带给孟维的地方特色工艺品，还有一个装满小饼干的收纳罐。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">理到最后，欧隽坤的表情也越来越冰寒，他抚着眉头问孟维：“小管家和你家电器都解除配对了？”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">孟维点头说：“是的，都解除配对了。”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">是的，就像他们现在这样，解除配对了。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">欧隽坤把玩着在圣保罗买的工艺品说：“不好意思，你给我买的几条领带不知道被我塞哪儿去了。”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">“没关系，不用还给我，反正那幺贵的领带我也找不到适的正装与之相配，随便你怎幺处置好了。”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">就像他们一样，其实从来就不般配。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">欧隽坤放下工艺品，又拿起装满饼干的收纳罐打量起来，“我记得我应该没送过你这个。”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">“那的确不是你送我的东西。”孟维顿了顿说，“你的生日快到了，那是我之前，我是说，是在我们分手之前，我做好的饼干。”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">欧隽坤的喉结翻动了一下，说：“我告诉过你，我不过生日。”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">“我知道。那是算了。”话到嘴边，只觉得赘述无益，反正今天就是来还东西的，“东西已经带到，你看着办吧。”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">此时，一直在旁围观的耳钉帅哥对饼干好奇起来，从欧隽坤手中拿过罐子，叹道：“看起来做得不错啊，都和店里卖得差不多了，你不过生日的话，能给我尝一个不？”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">欧隽坤看似轻松地说：“当然。”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">心酸的滋味如此清晰。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">孟维从耳钉帅哥手中将饼干罐恣意拿身边，缓缓将盖子转开，举起收纳罐倒转过来，而后看着里面的饼干倾述倒出，零落洒落在地上。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">最后直到整个罐子被放空，他手一松，那收纳罐便重重滚落在地上。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">空气忽然间像是被冻结似的，那样安静。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">他说：“欧隽坤，如果你不喜欢，你可以尽管把他们当垃圾扔掉，但请不要给别人。”他强忍下眼中的沸腾，“几个月前，你曾经跟我说过，叫我帮你保管好你的四院，你说，‘或是拆了砸了也总好过被不相干的人糟蹋了’，此时此刻，我也是同样的心情。”

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">我宁愿我的真心被你碾成齑粉，也不要别人触碰它一丝一毫。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">欧隽坤站在原地，无声地望着他。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">他明明看见欧隽坤的拳头紧紧握起又颓然松开。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">后来他好像离开了欧隽坤家又好象变成了隐形人，而那个炮友也莫名其妙地消失不见了。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">他来到客厅，看见欧隽坤坐在地上捡起一块小小的饼干出神地看着，上面标着一个日期。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">不仅仅是那一块，所有的饼干都标着日期，按时间排列刚好是孟维去米兰和国的这中间三个月。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">一个月一种口味，依次是花生味、牛奶味和蓝莓味。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">咬下一块饼干似是发现里面夹着一小块拼图。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">上面写着一个英文字母。

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">所有的饼干对应的拼图按照时间顺序排列，最后他拼出了一段话。

l is for the way you look at me <span style="font-family:

宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:"times new roman"">（l<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";

mso-hansi-font-family:"times new roman"">是你望着我的样子）

o is for the only one i see <span style="font-family:宋体;

mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:"times new roman"">（o <span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";

mso-hansi-font-family:"times new roman"">是我的眼中只有你）

v is very, very extraordinary <span style="font-family:宋体;

mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:"times new roman"">（v <span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";

mso-hansi-font-family:"times new roman"">是感觉非常非常特别）

e is even more than ahat you adore <span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">（e<span style="font-family:

宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:"times new roman"">是没人比我更爱你）

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">那是6<span style="font-family:

宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:"times new roman"">年代的黑人爵士乐歌手nat king cole<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:

"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:"times new roman"">晚年的经典作品，他看见欧隽坤将那首歌找出来反复味，不知不觉间，单曲循环到了黎明的微光时分。

love is all that i give to you

love is more than just a game for two

two in love make it

take my heart and please don't break it

love was made for me and you

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">孟维想起了几天前，自己在厨房里忙碌的身影，一边给坤哥烘培着小饼干，一边沉浸在轻松悠扬的爵士乐中。

take my heart and please don't break it

take my heart and please don't break it

<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-ascii-font-family:"times new roman";mso-hansi-font-family:

"times new roman"">可是那颗心，还是被那个人亲手摔碎了。